Writing about anxiety seemed like an important get-to-know-me post. Unfortunately, your girl has struggled with anxiety for most of her life. In middle school all I wanted was to be invisible so I wouldn’t have to worry about the inevitable social embarrassment that I would get during any conversation I had with anyone ever. It was mentally exhausting.
I have social anxiety. It started when I was in 7th grade and I didn’t deal with it properly until I was a junior in college. Up until that point, talking to people was extremely difficult for me (especially boys). I would become flustered and nervous when talking on the phone or ordering food or during just about any everyday interaction. I never dated, and never wanted to meet new people.
It wasn’t until a little over a year ago that I sought out professional help. I was able to use resources at my university to talk to a psychiatrist and start on a medication that worked for me. And let me tell you, I never thought I would be mentally where I am today. I made a very tight group of friends at school through making films together, I’ve been dating my boyfriend for a year, and I don’t freak out during social interactions. Most days, my anxiety doesn’t even cross my mind.
I’m lucky. I was able to find the right medication on my first try, and had the support from friends to help me through the rougher times. If you suffer from anxiety, don’t ignore it. Seek out help, do some research on coping tactics, and take your life back. Coming from someone on the other side of social anxiety, it is SO worth it.